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Since “coming out” as a person with depression, a lot of people have confided in me that they or someone they love is depressed. Often the question is, “what do I do?”  My answer is perhaps very different from what I’ve seen on the Internet. I don’t recommend starting with self-help, I tell them to …

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Looking back on my outpatient therapy materials, one symptom of depression that appears a lot is rumination. When I looked up the word “rumination” on Dictionary.com, the definition didn’t sound so bad – “to meditate or muse; ponder.” This is a far cry from what we depressives do. Interestingly, the farm definition fit better “to …

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Every doctor I’ve ever had has asked me to track my mood and symptoms. I bet you’re getting the same request. I’ve created a lot of different ways to track my mood, used phone apps and websites, and I’ve found simple and easy is the only way I’ll keep with it and use it every day. So here …

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Update 3/21/2017: As I reread this post I am struck by the difference a year has made. I still get suicide thoughts when I have a depression episode, but gratefully, thankfully, that isn’t happening very frequently – maybe a week out of 2-3 months, which means months of mood stability. It’s an amazing relief to …

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I wrote this on February 10, 2016, a day after writing Bad Head Comes and Goes. What a difference one day makes. Yesterday I was still in my bad head, albeit on my way out. Today, I’m feeling good.   I knew my mood had switched as I drove into work. My thoughts were about my …

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I launched my blog over a week ago but had not publicized it until today. Even now I am full of doubt about whether I should be doing this, whether I should REALLY go public and let it all hang out with this blog. I’ve been getting tangled up in worry and fear about what …

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